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Letting Go of a World in Collapse: The Conversation We’re Too Afraid to Have

“Courage is an inner resolution to go forward despite obstacles; Cowardice is submissive surrender to circumstances. Courage breeds creativity; Cowardice represses fear and is mastered by it. Cowardice asks the question, is it safe? Expediency ask the question, is it politic? Vanity asks the question, is it popular? But conscience ask the question, is it right? And there comes a time when we must take a position that is neither safe, nor politic, nor popular, but one must take it because it is right.” —Martin Luther King Jr.

NOTE: This post/essay is filled with considerable depth. As such, it is my most important post to date. The content is raw and lengthy. It is the voice of my heart … my stark naked soul. This is part one of a 3-part series. For those who courageously venture through it all, I honor and thank you from the depth of my soul. For those who prefer reading in pdf format, I’ve created a downloadable pdf file of the essay in its entirety that can be read in multi-page format.


A few weeks ago an email from a podcast listener arrived in my in box. It read as follows:


I’ve recently discovered you and your work. Your work is amazing, however it’s filled with too much hope in today’s world (Hopium). We are already in the 6th mass extinction with tipping points long passed. There is NO saving the ocean, saving endangered species, saving the forests, saving humans. It’s too late. THIS is the message that needs to be shared…how we live and die at the end of human civilization.

Love, AV

My initial read through triggered a wave of irritation peppered with self-righteous indignation. How dare anyone tell me that my message is filled with “too much Hopium”.

When the wave passed however, what remained was a feeling of deep sadness. I realized that the initial irritation emerged from a part of me that didn’t want to be called out on my denial. In my heart and in every cell of my being, I knew that she was right.

In recent monthly posts, I’ve alluded to the rapidly imploding, pressurized global energies I’ve been feeling with heightened intensity. For the record, I don’t profess to be psychic. I don’t channel non-physical entities, swing pendulums, or commune with guides, angels, ET’s, or fairies. I have no crystal ball, magic wand, tarot cards, or ouija board. I’m fully embodied and plugged into my heart and the energies of the Earth—deeply grounded in my profound love for Gaia.

After numerous conversations with others who are intuitively connected, including local indigenous wisdom, I know that I’m far from alone in feeling the alarming Earth energies that are playing out. Although my heart knows how dire the planetary situation is, I’ve sidestepped the deep inner truth that I carry. With receipt of AV’s recent email however, I know that I’ve been called out. I feel that it’s incumbent upon me to now step in to where I’ve been too fearful to go.

I confess that I’ve mastered the art of procrastination with the paralytic inertia I’ve been feeling while writing this post. I’ve been grieving, feeling, and processing my own denial as I navigate the collapsing energies that have descended on my heart. This is why an April post wasn’t written. I’ve been struggling for the proper words for this month’s blog post/essay, figuring out a way to give voice to a tough conversation that scares me. But the thing about tough conversations is that, well, they’re tough conversations. The only way to say what needs to be said is to just tell it like it is. I’ve finally reached a place of acceptance where I’m able to write this post from a place of transparent authenticity.

It’s Over

Over the past few months I’ve been feeling a greater sense of grief over the state of the world with the accelerating breakdown playing out in every aspect of life on Earth. I’m finding it increasingly difficult to navigate this Gaia Grief as I call it, knowing that everything I love so dearly—animals and nature—are being mindlessly consumed, commoditized and destroyed with reckless abandon. Joanna Macy calls this breakdown The Great Unraveling. The word that resonates most with me is collapse.

I’m blessed to live in a stunning location that is energetically charged by rainforests, mountains and ocean. I live in a state of perpetual awe for the beauty that still remains in this part of the world. As such, I’m aware of the “thinness” of this magnificent place, where the veil between the physical and non-physical world is virtually non-existent. Unlike a city with its denuded, unnatural landscape and the incessant noise from honking cars, blaring music, car alarms, machines, construction, techno-distraction, and the mental static of worry, busyness, fatigue, anxiety, and irritation, Earth energy is much easier to feel here—especially for the energetically sensitive like myself. I feel what is unseen and unheard by the collective, and which is subsequently ignored and denied by our culture. The Sunshine Coast is a true barometer for what’s really occurring in the world on a non-physical level. For me, this is truth.

The internal guidance I’ve been receiving is arriving with a clarity that is beyond what I’m used to. The message is clear: get out of the system. Collapse is upon us. It’s no longer some distant event. It’s happening now and it’s happening faster than anyone can predict.

Along with the clear message to extricate myself from the system, I’ve been having repetitive premonitions that won’t let up.

These premonitions have a persistent ocean theme that come with two words, “It’s over.”

My intellect is grasping, trying to understand what the “it” is that’s over. Is it literal: the collapse of our oceans? Is it our dominant patriarchal worldview of separation? Is it our consumptive culture of infinite growth, ignorance, distraction, and relentless destruction? Is it our biosphere? Is it humanity? Is it life on Earth? There’s no doubt that we’re collectively committing ecocide, is it more?

As my mind struggles for answers, my heart doesn’t care. Content is irrelevant. To my heart it makes no difference if the “it” is cultural, economic, ecological, or human collapse. Rather than allow my mind to exhaust me with possible future scenarios, my heart has chosen to be fully present with what is. In this acceptance, I’ve unleashed a force from within that knows that no matter how it all plays out, it’s ok, because the love in my heart remains steadfast through it all.

In Praise of Mortality

Despite our widespread willful ignorance, it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to understand that a consumptive way of living that devours non-renewable “resources” with reckless abandon cannot last.

If “it’s over” means the end of life on Earth, there are worse things than the end of Earth’s surface humanity—such as continuing in a way that systemic tyranny and desecrating consumption reigns, while free-will, freedom and awakening to inclusive consciousness is forsaken.

As Peter Russell says, “There’s no blame for the crisis we are in. Any intelligent technological species has the potential to become a magnificent flowering of consciousness, but the side effects of its rapid evolution mean that it only has a short window of time to complete it’s evolutionary journey. Facing the end of our species could in itself be the wake-up call we need.”

One manifestation of our collective insanity is that we’ll do anything to deny our own mortality. We’ve all known since early on that we’re going to die and that our mortality is ensured, but ironically, we have a death-phobic mindset in a culture that is driven by a compulsive urge to destroy life.

This is insanity.

Most people exist as if they’re never going to die—invincible … immortal. Yet they don’t really live either. The level of anxiety and depression is profound. The world is filled with hopeless, unhappy, self-loathing people. By avoiding all conversations about pain and death, slavery is ensured and the masses never break free from their own misery.

Facing our own mortality can be, in many cases, a radical awakening to a more sacred connection with all life. In my own life, the most liberating, expansive and transformative experience was the untimely death of my mother. As painful as it was, it altered my perception of reality and connected me to a deeper love for life.

I believe that if we faced the fact that we may be coming to the end of our incredible evolutionary journey as a species, we can live with more love in our hearts than we’ve ever known. To me, this is a beautiful thing.

As Joanna Macy says, “There is absolutely no excuse for making our passionate love for the world dependent on what we believe the outcome will be: whether life continues on or not. In this uncertainty, we come alive.”


I realize that warnings of ‘collapse’ and the end of civilization are often viewed as fringe or controversial, but I believe that on some level, we’re all feeling it. To the naked eye, things may look “ok”, but lurking below the surface, we know something quite different.

Collapse is not a new concept. Civilizations have risen and fallen repeatedly throughout history. The difference this time however is that collapse is not isolated to a particular civilization, it extends to all life on earth. It is the sixth mass extinction event that gets little airtime in our truth suppressed world.

We’ve had endless opportunities to wake up and alter our course throughout history. Instead, we’ve chosen the deeper coma of separation by remaining enslaved to our cultural conditioning. We now have more babies, more consumption, more violence, more ignorance, more denial, more entitlement, more arrogance, more selfishness, more depression, more anxiety, more addiction, and more distracting and destructive technologies to drive us further from our souls. The increase in human population is directly related to the escalating violence and destruction in our world.

As Derrick Jenson writes in his book, Endgame, “The culture as a whole and most of its members are insane. The culture is driven by a death urge, an urge to destroy life. From birth on, we are individually and collectively enculturated to hate life, hate the natural world, hate the wild, hate and fear animals, hate women, hate children, hate our bodies, hate and fear our emotions, hate ourselves. If we did not hate the world, we could not allow it to be destroyed before our eyes. If we did not hate ourselves, we would not allow our homes—and our bodies—to be poisoned.”

If we could only stop the war on our souls, we would stop the war on the Earth and everything else.

Our dominant culture is built on the foundation of separation and violence. Rape of the Earth is rewarded, peace on Earth is punished. Lies are honored, truth is vilified. Ignorance is coveted, wisdom is ridiculed. Even the so called ‘awakened’ remain trapped in the conditioned entitlement that perpetuates the slavery, oppression and slaughter of animals for their flesh (meat), ovulations (eggs), and maternal secretions (dairy). Everything that represents the feminine/life—particularly animals and nature—is fair game for obliteration in our anthropocentric patriarchal culture. Sadly, with women influencing more than 85% of household purchasing decisions—and unconscious decisions as the norm—the destructive forces of patriarchy infect us all.

With a rapidly growing critical mass in a coma, our ecocide is rendering planet Earth uninhabitable. The planet cannot regenerate itself as quickly as industrial civilization is destroying it. Even the antiquated notion of linear Newtonian science brings with it alarming predictions. What Newtonian science fails to recognize however, is the organic, non-linear nature of Gaia. Gaia is a living organism and linear scientific predictions just don’t work for the rapid acceleration we’re now experiencing. We’ve set off so many positive self-reinforcing feedback loops that we’re officially on a runaway train to a greater hell than we’ve already created. When the web of life breaks down, collapse accelerates and there is no certainty … no predictability.

Newtonian science speaks from a linear cause and effect worldview. If “x” continues to happen, then “y” will happen in 10 years they tell us. It always seems like a distant event that may or may not play out should we decide to curb our consumptive ways. We tend to face problems with facts, figures, data, statistics, extrapolation, reason, and rationale. We think that we can master the world with a three pound hunk of watery flab—our almighty brains—but this only serves to distance us from the source of our greatest potential and the place where we most need to go: our hearts.

We’re not only living through startling ecological, economic, system and cultural collapse, but most frightening of all, we’re living in a state of collapsed consciousness—where fear, denial and ignorance reign supreme. Our cultural story of separation/patriarchy has been fundamentally contradicting truth, love and life for several thousand years. It is therefore, contrary to the essence of who we are. As such, we’re confused about who and what we are as a species, especially within our modern, narcissistic technological civilization. Because we’re so unsure of our identity as a species, we’ve lost all sense of belonging in Nature. This disconnect from the web of life has sadly brought us to where we now stand today.

Lately, I’ve been wracking my brain trying to figure out what the purpose of homo sapien is—and always has been for that matter. I keep coming up empty. Biologist Jonas Salk said, “If all the insects were to disappear from the earth, within 50 years all life on earth would end. If all human beings disappeared from the earth, within 50 years all forms of life would flourish.” Such a tragic statement about how far we’ve strayed from the web of life.

While every other form of life on this planet intimately knows its place within the web of life, what the hell happened to us? Surely we were not created with the sole purpose of forgetting who we are so we could gobble up everything in our path leaving a trail of toxic trash in our wake while destroying the biosphere in the process. Despite everything pointing in that direction, I have a hard time believing this could be so. Despite my own imperfections, I know that it’s not so for me, but do I confess that I’m confused. According to Eknath Easwaran’s translation of the Bhagavad Gita, “Since the Self is the core of every personality, no one needs to acquire goodness or compassion; they are already there. All that is necessary is to remove the selfish habits that hide them.”

So the problem is not a lack of goodness and compassion, the problem is a lack of interest in expressing goodness and compassion—especially in ways that are not conditional or fragmented.

For most of my life, I’ve felt like I’ve been shouting love and compassion for animals, the Earth, and the human soul into a hurricane hoping for someone … anyone to hear me. But sadly, love and compassion are not big sellers in the paradigm of separation. Six pack abs? For sure! Sixth mass extinction event? Meh. Scarf down another bacon cheeseburger, chase it with a beer and Prozac and all is well.

On a deep visceral level, I know that the world I now live in is nothing like the world I grew up in. The degradation of human consciousness that has accompanied the population explosion is significant. Despite my lifelong work for a kinder, more compassionate world, I now wonder if it’s worth the effort anymore. I feel the bittersweet pain when I sit by the ocean with my partner and dogs admiring a beautiful sunset knowing that the oceans are plasticized beyond repair and are now nearly devoid of life. Spring comes earlier every year, flooding is more intense every year, heatwaves last longer every year, larger algae blooms choke the ocean every year, drought descends earlier every year, fire burns more aggressively every year. And yet we still do nothing to change our ways.

As comedian Jimmy Kimmel says, “2014 was the warmest year on record. Until 2015 was the warmest year ever. Now 2016 is already turning out to be warmer than either of the previous two years. You know how you can determine if climate change is real? When the hottest year on record is whatever year it currently is. That’s how you know. We’ve had 15 of the 16 hottest years ever since 2001.”

If we’re really honest with ourselves—as was written in the email from AV—tipping points are well behind us and there’s no hope for salvaging our broken world anymore. Quite frankly, why would we want to continue on with what is so blatantly cruel and destructive toward life anyways? Because it’s familiar? I don’t think so.

We’ve had ample opportunities for transformation. So many wide open doors to walk through, and each time we’ve chosen to slam the doors shut, throw on the deadbolts, toss the keys, and relocate every piece of furniture to ensure our containment. With our refusal to walk through however, we’re now locked from the outside as well. In his book Endgame, Derrick Jensen asks, “Do you believe that this culture is going to undergo a voluntary transformation to a sane and sustainable way of living?” Most of us know that the answer is a resounding NO. With our collective indifference and denial, we’ve thrown away all opportunities for a global transformation in consciousness.

We’ve had all of the knowledge, technology, creativity, ancient wisdom, and inspiration to create a beautiful new world for several decades, if not much longer. Instead, we’ve chosen the familiar coma of our antiquated separation-based worldview. The only changes we’ve experienced are those that clearly show how far we’ve strayed. The explosion of humans on the planet—all indoctrinated into the paradigm of separation—is the perfect recipe for biosphere collapse.

We’re rigid in our worldview and refuse to look outside of our mechanistic conditioning. We persist in having the same old conversations that we did hundreds of years ago. Sexism, speciesism, racism, and many other ‘isms are as prolific as ever. Climate change deny-osaurs abound. Quite honestly, I wouldn’t be at all surprised if there were many who still believed the world was flat.

As I write this post, Fort McMurray Alberta, the infamous oil and tar sand hell, is burning up. How tragically ironic. And while desperate conversations about anthropogenic climate change spring to life, the denial-infected masses angrily pounce on the harbingers of truth, denouncing their message as “preying on tragedy to further their climate change ‘agenda’”. WTF?

While this armageddon unfolds in my neighbouring province, red tides are choking out life in the ocean, coral reefs are dying, and the ever so eloquent Sarah Palin (sarcasm intended), in the full-on glory of her ignorant arrogance, bloviates about the great climate change hoax. Yes folks, 97% of scientists are wrong because Lady Palin said so. If that’s not enough, her bloviating partner in ignorant arrogance, Donald J. Trump is a few steps away from accepting the keys to the white house.

Methinks we ain’t seen nothing yet.

Read Part Two: The Same Old, Same Old, The Need for Grief, and Freedom from Hope.

Read Part 3: Activated Presence in Times of Planetary Hospice.

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This Post Has 43 Comments

  1. “Hopium” isn’t a thing. It’s a word invented by people who fear that if they are happy it will perpetuate things, if they’re satisfied, they’ll be punished.

    Let’s get that Protestant guilt ethic out of the way for a moment (and stop whacking people over the head with it).

    Ecosystems are damaged by extractive economics, yes.

    But much much smaller than the biosphere is our civilization. And THAT is what is dying.
    When it dies, it’s exploitative hunger will die with it.

    The level of depression is profound. The world is filled with hopeless, unhappy, unsatisfied people.

    Now, the key to overcoming this despondency is to force your brain to work.

    Is the ecosystem collapsing or is the civilization collapsing? Which one depends on the other?
    And with the civilization gone, who will be destroying the planet?

    Is it the oceans that are dying or is it the fisheries that are collapsing? Not the same thing!
    Is it the watershed that’s collapsing, or the ability to irrigate a thousand miles of lettuce minocrop?

    Is it Gaia that’s dying …or the ability to live life based on prayer, fame, and making up words like “hopium?”

    The world isn’t collapsing.

    But civilization is …and with it, the way of life that we both hate and cling to with all our might is dying.

    Have hope. There are endless opportunities OUTSIDE the system.

    And the system is taking care of itself, rotting from the inside.

    1. Agreed! Civilization is rotting from the inside and it can’t happen fast enough.

      I have no hope anymore and it’s been the most empowering and liberating release ever. I highly recommend it!

      Living in denial that the collapse of our toxic civilization is not also contributing to biosphere collapse is dangerous and perpetuates our anthropocentric arrogance. It’s not as simple as an either/or choice, where civilization collapses and Earth systems continue on. Civilization has caused irreversible damage. Oceans are dying, as are fisheries. Watersheds are collapsing, as is the ability to irrigate a thousand miles of lettuce monocrop. Civilization is dying and so is its exploitative hunger (thank god!).

      The world is indeed filled with hopeless, unhappy, unsatisfied people. No excuse for that except a willingness to comply to a toxic system. There are endless opportunities outside the system. If only humans had the will to exit.

      We don’t need our brains to work. That 3 pound hunk of watery flab is what got us into this mess in the first place. We need to put an end the intellectual oppression and give voice to our hearts. We need the most powerful muscle in the body to be activated. We need our hearts to lead the way. We need to feel the pain of our massive fuckup and allow ourselves to be swallowed by our grief. Until we remember that we incarnated to feel, we’ll always live in the illusion that we can ‘think’ and ‘hope’ our way out of problems—only driving them deeper.

      If you haven’t already, I invite you to read the entire pdf file as it goes much deeper into this necessary conversation.

      Thank you so much for sharing your truth and your passion! THAT is what the world needs.

    2. Hopium is a great word! TY Guy McPherson for coining the term, and for telling the truth, no matter how uncomfortable. TY Deb for your courage to face the issue of grief gripping those who have a modicum of empathy left. We have triggered processes and feedbacks that lead to complete loss of habitat for life – no habitat, no biosphere.

      Extinction – this time it is different! Humans have created over 300,000 tons of nuclear waste, of which NONE has been secured. There are over 1000 radioisotopes in this waste, some of which are lethal in microgram amounts, some with multi-billion year half-lives.

      In the past, after great extinctions, life has been able to recover, but since there is no viable plan to keep the radioisotopes secure, Earth will be a barren rock. With “civilization” gone, it is the nuclear waste we created that will continue destroying any life on the living planet, for millions of years. Hope is a four lettered word! Denial is the first stage of grief.

      Live with excellence and do what you love now, regardless of the outcome, and tell people you love them! It is a shame it takes the realization of mankind’s murder of 90 million species and the biosphere to realize this in the decade or so we have left.

  2. Stunning piece, Deb. Absolutely stunning. I’m sort of speechless after reading this, but oddly inspired. Thank you for daring to be so authentic. You’re a true visionary. xx

    1. Exactly what Linda said. I am blown away. Everything you say is stunning and heart-breaking and heart-opening at the same time. Thank you so much. The only thing I struggle with is veganism and I hope we could spark a conversation and I’m open to learning from your heart-felt wisdom. I eat meat and drink milk but I try my hardest to only source it from local-farmers and only from humane sources. Traditional, ancient, indigenous cultures have eaten animal products and were able to do so in harmony with the earth and with love and care for the animals. I do believe in the Divine and, as part of that, I believe we humans are distinct and set apart from the rest of creation. We are the only ones who have been given free will and choice; not only to live by instinct or by lack of choice as the rest of creation (animal, plants, minerals – they simply just ARE their true nature without contemplation and ability to choose another path). But rather we have been elevated and put here on earth as it care-takers, as creation with an ability to choose, to contemplate, to change, to make choices etc. We are both capable of ascending to our highest spiritual possibility and our greatest Self or we have the capacity to choose to descend to our lowest, animalistic, selfish, hateful selves. In this belief that I hold, I also believe that it is allowed for us to consume animals, only if done in a humane and sustainable way. That there is deep wisdom in this and, while certainly not required (again free will) and certainly not taking part in the horrific modern practices around meat and dairy, it is something that can be allowed and we can even entertain the idea that on a spiritual level, this may be ok actually and part of our journey and part of an animal’s journey in this life. I am saying this coming from a heart that is deeply empathic and I care so much for all creatures, including animals. I deeply feel the suffering of animals, of the earth, and of the state of humanity. And I deeply believe that we are to be the loving caretakers of every creature on this Earth. But I just wanted to contribute another facet of this conversation and I look forward to hearing back and hearing what others would like to share around this. Thank you Deb for this beautiful site and for your profound writings. Yours views and your heart have touched me deeply and I feel so content when I come across others who feel deeply as I do about the state of the world.

      1. There are many different ways to see the world Kara. I do not see it the way you do. I do not subscribe to the belief in human superiority. There is so much that we, as a species, do not know. There is even more that we don’t even know that we don’t know. We cannot know that animals/plants/minerals, etc. are the more “unevolved” on this planet of human destruction. We only believe this to be the case. This is a most damaging belief that traps humanity in separation from all life. As the web of life continues its accelerated breakdown, we will soon see the truth—that we are nothing without Gaia.

        Your beliefs about indigenous ways, Divine, human elevation, free will, etc. are yours, and I cannot change them. Nor am I interested in changing them. I only ask that you pause and look deep into the eyes of every animal whose life you choose to exploit or slaughter for your consumption (assuming you do your own killing), and then ask your Self if you truly are superior; if you truly are “elevated”; if you truly are connected to your Divine Self; if your life truly is worth more than that of another. The eyes are the windows to the Soul. When we allow ourselves to see one another—regardless of race, gender or species—we see that there is not one of us who is better than, or more “elevated” than another. We see that we are all sourced from the same Energy and—despite the body suit we choose to incarnate in—we are all the same. Just because the indigenous did it one way, doesn’t mean it was right. Replicating the future from the past is what traps us in a destructive inertia that ensures we never evolve beyond our separation.

        If human superiority was truly the way things were meant to be—and for the sake of continuity and consistency with your belief—then men are indeed the dominant species/gender, and all they do to oppress/suppress/abuse/exploit women is perfectly fine.

        A truth I know deep within is that hierarchy/superiority/separation/elevation are wrong, and this applies to women, animals, the natural world, etc.

        I say all of this not out of malice, only to expand the possibility of seeing through a lens that is free from separation and superiority.

  3. Wow, I read your essay with such attention. So beautifully written but oh so sad, so sadly true. I feel also that we are at the end of the end game and we must now focus spritually even more on how to depart, with grace at the least. Oh such fools, we were not brave, as you spoke of, our courage stolen from us by our selves. Yes, the paradigm of separation—is the perfect recipe for biosphere collapse as is this same paradigm that which robs us of our empathy for all animal nations. Both a spiritual disaster.

    1. Thank you for your beautiful words Susan. I agree with everything you write. However it all plays out in the end, let us reclaim all of who we have always been meant to be. Let us take back what was conditioned out of us by our parents, teachers, authority figures, and culture. By stepping into our essence, we reclaim our wholeness and we live with love and grace until the end … whenever that may be. This is the way I intend to go and I’m grateful to know that I’m not alone.

  4. Thank you so much Deb. Finally found someone else who comprehends the collapse that is underway and also understands intersectionalism. Thank you for being willing to express your acceptance of the inevitable collapse of life on earth and that industrial civilization is not going to technologicalize our way out of it. So happy to find a fellow vegan who is at the same place as me. Deep gratitude.

    1. Deep gratitude to you too Nat. So happy to know that there are other vegans who really get it … and who are willing to love fully until the end.

  5. I agree with your statement, “If we could only stop the war on our souls, we would stop the war on the Earth and everything else.” I’d like to approach this from another perspective… On the Near Term Human Extinction LOVE Facebook page, a member asked this: What do you think was the event in human history that led to the cascade that is now culminating in our imminent extinction?” Here is my response: I’d say our selfish and destructive tendencies trace back to the Garden of Eden, when our ancestors/we decided to eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil: “Then the eyes of both of them were opened, and they realized they were naked; so they sewed fig leaves together and made coverings for themselves.” (Gen 3:7) Innovation and industries began then: a technological revolution born of necessity, shame, and fear of death.

    In other words, the “Endgame” began eons ago when we left Eden, rebelling against God. Thus, the war on our souls cannot be won by any human means. We need redemption that only God can achieve for us by grace. In the New Testament book of Romans, Paul the Apostle write this: 22-25 All around us we observe a pregnant creation. The difficult times of pain throughout the world are simply birth pangs. But it’s not only around us; it’s within us. The Spirit of God is arousing us within. We’re also feeling the birth pangs. These sterile and barren bodies of ours are yearning for full deliverance. That is why waiting does not diminish us, any more than waiting diminishes a pregnant mother. We are enlarged in the waiting. We, of course, don’t see what is enlarging us. But the longer we wait, the larger we become, and the more joyful our expectancy.

    26-28 Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God’s Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don’t know how or what to pray, it doesn’t matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That’s why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good.

    May God’s Spirit find and fill you in these end times.

  6. I agree, and thank you for speaking truth. All that’s left that is good is tenderness, compassion, and joy in the beauty of the moment. But I hope life continues after Homo sapiens are extinct; I believe it will. I’m so sad that we have and are taking countless species with us.

    1. The destruction of non-human life is the part that pains me the most too Noe. It hurts like hell.

  7. Dear Deb,
    Beautiful essay. Just spent several days touring with Dr. Guy McPherson. He’s also known as Dr. McStinction or Dr. Doom. Perhaps you two should connect. He’s easily accessible via Facebook and email. I will respond again soon but for now, just sending you love. Amy Vegan

  8. Methane hydrates. I started counting down from 10 years. Six to go. Cyanibacta get mobbed by other humanotoxic bacteria that flourish in high methane content. Cyanibacta give off oxygen. Others do not. Methane =co2 x 28 times more powerful greenhouse gas. It rises from tundra, yes. mostly from the oceans though. (ref your insight) people will not thank you for telling them. There is no emergency exit. The disease of avarice will not be out evolved. It was to late even, all things considered, by the 1970s. Small things will survive. It’s happened before, and eventually a balance wil return. So much for homo sapiens. We should have been more sentient sentinals. Enjoy the ride. X

  9. An excellent essay and one I totally agree with.

    Large scale Arctic methane release is something that I have been trying to make aware for quite some time and have every time encountered the wall of ignorance and hubris mentioned here.

    I also regularly visit the sites mentioned by Reverse Engineer which, mainly preach to the converted. It is the powers that be that need to be educated and they are too full of themselves to admit their growth ideology is fundamentally and fatally flawed.

    “There is no point in saving the planet if we ruin the economy doing it.” — former NSW Premier Morris Iemma

    For my part, I am concentrating on ensuring my own survival however, I do realize that my chances of success are very small.

    Keep up the good work Deb. A small chance of surviving is better than none at all.


    1. Agreed that those who control the machine will never change. The machine has a life-force of its own and to enter it is to become it.

      It is consuming itself however. I know that it will die, but not without destroying the biosphere in the process.

      I’m not sure what the end will look like. Nobody does. I do know that the only world I would choose to remain in after everything goes to hell in a hand basket (if a choice exists that is), is one with an awakened humanity. What are the odds of that? I have a hunch that if anyone remains, it will likely be fear-infected, gun toting redneck survivalists who make Ted Nugent look like a sweetheart. 🙂 That is not the world I want to live in should anyone remain in the end.

      My plan to live as fully as I possibly can until my last exhale—whenever that is. Go big AND go home! And why not inspire others to join me along the way?!

      Glad you’re in!

      1. Will do.
        I have bookmarked your homepage and will be sharing this link with the hundreds of politicians and journalists on my mailing list which, I have been lobbying for years and am only now starting to see some results. Logic and persistence for only a little gain.

        “First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win.” — Mahatma Gandhi

        I am more than willing promote you.
        Email me if you want to be included in my mailing list. No spam or request for donations I promise.

  10. Thank you.

    Raw wisdom!

    As a naturalist and wilderness guide I’ve been a front edge witness to this heart breaking a little with each beat..but I go on for Her..attempt to bring awareness to the masses and step with hope and conviction.

  11. A lot of this was validating and insightful, and I appreciate it.

    However, I feel frustrated that with the vast technological resources available for us to use, and that we are not at least giving mass mobilization a go. There has been technology available that sucks CO2 out of the air for at least 10 years. We could send up some kind of reflective mechanism to the Arctic & slow the melt. We could rapidly reforest using drone technology. We could put a global 10 year moratorium on animal agriculture to save our water & forests. We could ban gasoline automobiles, massively subsidize EVs and create a modern electric transit system. Why this is all not being done on an emergency level completely boggles my mind.

    I used to be anti civ until I lived near a massive climate chaos fueled forest fire. We could at the least have Ecodomes or under ground/under water settlements while we figure out how to regenerate our planet. There are scientists working on plans to bring life to Mars – the very least we can do is work as hard as we can to restore life on our own planetand live sustainably forever after.

    1. My take is that the problem is not a lack of technological resources to heal the world. The problem is not even climate change or climate chaos as we’re now experiencing. The problem is a crisis in consciousness that has trapped humanity in ignorance, arrogance, entitlement and a sickening separation from the web of life.

      All of your recommendations bring up memories of the movie Total Recall with Arnold Schwarzenegger. In other words, everywhere we go, everything we do, we take ourselves with us. Until we wake up (if that’s even possible), we’ll carry on with our deeply conditioned sense of arrogant entitlement, and keep on keeping on with our familiar path of unconscious destruction.

      We can affix as many technological (or otherwise) band-aids as we want, but as long as we believe in the destruction of animals and nature, and as long as we feel an entitled need to drive cars around—whether they’re EV or not—we’re trapped in the purgatory of our own separation. And we’re taking everyone and everything we’ve separated from with us.

      We’ve destroyed such a beautiful planet in this Earth. We don’t deserve Mars. We deserve nothing but our own demise so that the planet can finally heal from the violation of the most invasive species of all.

      My question now is this: Can we at the very least, leave this world with the love, compassion and grace we’ve neglected to claim for our entire existence on this planet? That alone would be a radical awakening. That alone would make whatever life is left, worthwhile.

  12. The only disagreement I have with the author is that our species’ destruction is not also a harbinger of earth’s destruction of life. Tipping points have come and passed, but in the end, after humans have destroyed themselves whatever creatures or plants or algae or even bacteria that manage to survive will thrive in the world and continue less impeded by an empty world than they would be by a full one. I can’t imagine what will happen then. But all life won’t end up extinct. If it can’t survive as it is, whatever adapts best and is the most speedy to do so will survive.

    1. Agreed.

      Although I’m not at all religious, I’m aware that it’s been said that the meek will inherit the Earth. “Meekness”, in our westernized conditioned culture often suggests passivity and weakness. But the Greek word for meek is praus which denotes strength brought under control—exactly the opposite of homo sapien. So for anyone to believe that the meek includes humanity is a joke.

      I have great confidence that whatever survives our blight will finally know what it is to live in non-separate harmony—just as nature always intended.

  13. Wow Deb,
    Really well thought out and presents the situation in a clear perspective. Not being a particularly good writer, I’ve been struggling to say this to others, failing miserably. 🙁

    Now I have the perfect place to send people to explain, without having to direct them to Macy’s books, which most would be unlikely to obtain and read.

    I’m going to join your list, it will take me some time to read the earlier blogs, but at least I can keep up with the new stuff!


  14. Thank you for this post. I agree with you on hope.
    Thank you for sharing this article.

  15. Speechless. I am both devastated after reading this and somehow more assured than ever. I have always felt so alienated from others, so different for being in tune with this beautiful planet of ours. It broke my heart to read this piece but I know that there’s so much truth to it.

    1. Joanna Macy says that, “The heart that breaks open can contain the whole universe.” I couldn’t agree more. Imagine a world full of homo sapiens who allowed their deepest core feelings to flow through their being? We would not be where we are today. Heartbreak and grief are gateways to our most profound love, and in a culture that teaches us to silence everything real about our love, emotions and feelings, no wonder it leaks out in destructive and dysfunctional ways—even when it’s medicated. Your heartbreak is a beautiful thing. It shows that you haven’t lost your humanity and that you give a damn! Thank you for sharing. 🙂

  16. Our Divine nature was never in the physical plane anyway. If even for an instant can we ponder what is possible when we free are true selves from limitations (heck just watch youtube videos of musicians, artists, house builders, etc.), we will see that not only are we a heartbeat away from self destruction, but just as close to divine reintroduction. BELIEVE not in what you see or even feel but in the incredible order that holds this universe together.

    1. Thanks for sharing your thoughts Karl.

      Homo sapien has mastered the ability to eradicate entire species en masse causing widespread extinction. To believe that we are somehow magically exempt from bringing about our own extinction is pretty delusional and arrogant don’t you think?

      If we can’t even bring ourselves to prevent the extinctions we’ve already caused—and continue to cause for so many others—how the hell can we possibly expect to prevent our own? I’m all for stroke of midnight miracles, but I’m not about to hold my breath and new age my way into mind-numbing fallacy. At the very least, we need to grow up, get over our sense of self-importance and take ownership for what we’ve done to the Earth and ourselves. Can we even do that???

      There’s no evidence that homo sapien is even remotely willing to make the radical changes required for healing itself or the Earth. In fact, it’s quite the opposite with how we carry on with business as usual despite the wildfires, droughts, floods, super storms, sinkholes, wars, mass shootings, xenophobia, homophobia, sexism, speciesism, and all of the other “obia’s” and “ism’s”, etc., etc., etc. The collective will does not exist to wake up or let go of industrial civilization and all of its destructive and distracting “comforts” and perks.

      I don’t believe that “divine reintroduction” can possibly occur with homo sapien in residence. Gaia will need thousands, perhaps millions of years to heal from the blight of homo sapien’s spiritual amnesia before “divine reintroduction” can bring to life a more spiritually evolved, interconnected and life-affirming species—if that is at all in the divine plan that is.

    2. Geeze Karl,

      So you use You-Tube videos as an example of how we are free from limitations?


      Nature is inherently limited. It is the “Manifest Destiny”. And it is the “we supersede the “physical plane” crap that got us here in the first place. What makes you (us) any better or smarter than a vat full of yeast in a beer brew house? Just like those yeast: We will eat all our fermentable sugars, overpopulate to eat them even faster, then piss into the environment our waste (alcohol) til it reaches a lethal level and kills us off even if there are still some sugars left to eat.

      I know… Deb is probably going to ban me from commenting, but “divine plane… Physical nature?” That is just jargonistic garbage! What are you even selling?

      1. Tori, you are not at all banned. Rather, I thank you for your truth-filled humor and agree with the danger of this magical thinking. I would love nothing more than to believe that “divine reintroduction” could at all be possible, but I’d probably have to drink a lot of Ayahuasca, smoke a lot of dope or eat a nauseating amount of funky mushrooms to make that happen. None of which appeals to me (I can’t even tolerate caffeine).

        Yes, we are spiritual beings. I don’t deny that in the least. BUT, we’re also flesh and bone, physical beings entranced by a patriarchal mindset that has trapped the human mind in a stagnant low-grade consciousness that has arrogantly separated itself from the web of life. This is not a recipe for “divine reintroduction”. It is however, a perfect recipe for self-destruction.

        1. *Sigh* Sorry. I generally try to be at least professional and not so harsh. Yes, I did read your response prior to commenting myself. You were much more like I prefer to be on-line. Not condescending “stick with the facts Ma’am” kind of post. Yet last month I just finished reading “Overdevelopment, Overpopulation, Overshoot” published by the Foundation for Deep Ecology. While almost every page and every word are burned into my mind, the “Afterword” section had a piece by Eileen Crist that just crushed me.

          Though, not to be out done, the forward had a bit by William Ryerson

          That was pretty awesome also!

          Well and that I just started reading Joanna Macy’s latest book “Coming Back to Life” which is as you can imagine… pretty eye opening. Not to even mention that one of the organizations I’m on the Board of Directors of ( is putting on a Deep Ecology Collaboratory this next October, with some of the most influential people in the deep ecology movement attending.

          So I digress…
          Karl’s post was more than I could ignore.

  17. Well done Deb, I have come to the same conclusions that you have after several decades of following scientific analysis of what is going on. I think you have done a great job of capturing the hopelessness of the situation. I think our problems began with the advent of nation states and Christianity. It would seem the last 2000 or so years of the colonial culture these two forces have wrought on the earth has sealed our fate. I have been posting about all of the issues you have raised on my Facebook page for years. They elicit very little interest compared to the interest shown in a pretty woman posting a picture of herself or some other similarly superficial distraction. I’ve dedicated my life to social justice and environmental issues since the 1980s. It is so sad to see this slide into neoliberalism and ecocide. It is so sad that the Greens allowed itself to be taken over by the forces of evil in the shape of the ALP who have perverted the parties original objective to present a vision for a way of transitioning to a sustainable and socially just future.

  18. Hi, Deb! I know I am half a year behind in reading this post, but I found a link to your post in another blogger’s post. I will now be a follower of your writing!

    Congratulations on facing your denial! I am trying to confront as much of mine as I can these days. I wrote a recent post on my new blog about giving up hope on industrial society:

    Pretty much all of what you write are my sentiments and thoughts. I found myself saying yes, exactly, after every paragraph. On your sentence, “Lately, I’ve been wracking my brain trying to figure out what the purpose of homo sapien is—and always has been for that matter. I keep coming up empty.” A place I would suggest starting is the book Tending the Wild by M. Kat Anderson. The book addresses the issue of human separation from ‘the environment’ by demonstrating the lack of separation between Native Californians and their ecosystem. Anderson showed me that humans have a role in ecosystems. Most of us are just so (so so so) removed from this role these days.

    Look forward to diving into the rest of your posts!

    1. Thank you for your thoughts Matt! Freeing myself from any and all residual denial and from hope has been nothing short of liberating. I highly recommend it! I’ll check out your post and your book recommendation. Always grateful for meaningful reads. With gratitude. 🙂

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